hang on. that's what i've been telling myself. things will change. they always do. even now, i could feel it. things are changing. school has, life has, and friends. so hang on, to life.

2nd term

so tomorrow school starts.... nooooooo! i havent achieved anything during the holiday.. havent arranged my sleeping time =.= usually i sleep like about 2 in the morning. and wake up about... 10. oh sh%t! gotta sleep!

Light is blinding my eye. Is it trying to kill me? or distract me. Whatever its objective is, i do not know. It relies on it's friend, the light bulb. "For what do you want, thou shall have it" I said. Silence. "speaketh you, for i-yeth know you-eth can-eth,". Still, silence. Is it mocking me? Am i not worthy of even its voice? Or doesn't it understand me. "Apa kau mau, sang lampung?". Again with the silence. I give up. Trying won't make a difference. Restlessness starts to overtake me. I guess, silence is what it wants. I have no choice now. I tried to avoid it but, i guess its time to hit the off switch...

2nd term is about to start. i still havent decided whether i should go to jis or not. though it seems like im more in favor of going to jis. i still havent finished my homework. looks like its gonna be a long day tomorrow. i'll try to finish the aict assignment today. ugh school works...

Angel Beats! one of those anime's that would leave you depressed or sad that it has ended. I tried to avoid watching animes as it always makes me depressed at the end of the title. But, i couldn't resist the cute girls, the well constructed story and most of all, the love they developed. Why? Because it is what I'm searching for in the real world. But to replicate what happened in the anime is literally impossible. Thus watching animes would create like a second world where you could escape the normal routine of the real world. and with that, i'd say life isn't perfect, but we'll try to make it so...

Its march now. time pass by so fast, and i haven't accomplished much. Everyday, i look out the window, trying to figure out what has changed. It's all the same to me, but now i know that things do change. As time pass by, we are changing goals. pursue-ing goals. People come and go in our life. That got me wondering. What are we going to do after our goal had been achieved? Eternal rest(death)? Sometimes i question myself what are we doing in this world. Religion wise it would be to worship god, until the end of time. But what then? After the end of times, we get judged and then sent to heaven and hell, to live forever then. As though there is no such thing as eternal rest. All we could do now, is wait...

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blog! i miss u! nahjust joking. sorry for not posting anything. ive been kind of busy. when i mean busy i mean lazy. so the latest update. 1) ive transferred school 2) i am still 15 3) it's 2012!!! 4) i am really happy i transferred. thats all there is to say for now, so, tune in next time!