It's been a long time since i blogged (not really). Finally, the assessment week is over! freedom! (again, not really) So... recently, there was a lot of changes. First, my crush said the word that i never really thought would be possible. Yes. It's hard to process it at first. Like someone hitting you in the head with a shovel, the world stopped turning. I tried to rewind what happened. But life had no rewinds. only dejavus  I never thought it would happen. She was right. If you put your mind into just about anything, you could accomplish it. One thing appears after another. After you accomplish something, sometimes you get stuck. Lost. Afraid. Dreams are made from goals, and in my case, goals were never meant to happen. i was a right back in football anyway Now, i intend to keep things as it currently is. Trying to keep the relationship, and also to keep my studies in check. I keep saying to myself not too long ago, that if i ever have a relationship, my first would be my last. It is, nearly impossible. But possibilities are endless. picking up a pen could result in an earthquake. Whatever happens, I'll just do what i think is right. Second, There is no second. I merely want to say the first